Here is a video of Jax singing Silent Night.
Away in the Manger
Friday, December 19, 2008
Friday, December 12, 2008
An attempt at a Christmas Picture
So, I really wanted to send out Christmas cards this year, but of course I got busy and waited until it was too late! Every year I try to get the perfect picture of my handsome little boys and I can NEVER get it! This is the best I could do!
I got a great picture of Connor and Jax, but Kaden was not in it...so it wasn't perfect!
I got a great picture of Connor and Jax, but Kaden was not in it...so it wasn't perfect!
Jaxson's Christmas Program
This year, Jaxson's class had a Christmas Program. It was wonderful, the 3 year olds sang 7 songs that they had been learning since October.
Jaxson was great!!! He was so animated and you could definitely hear him above everyone else!! He knew his songs and the hand motions to go with them!
Pictures and video coming soon...
Jaxson was great!!! He was so animated and you could definitely hear him above everyone else!! He knew his songs and the hand motions to go with them!
Pictures and video coming soon...
Angel Breakfast
Each year, our church puts on an Angel Breakfast. It is where the kids buy presents for kids at Boles Home for Christmas. Without our help, the kids would not get a Christmas.
This year I got the honor of helping to plan it. I had a lot of fun, but realized how much work goes into something like that. Amanda Allen is the organizer and she did a GREAT job!! The decorations (thanks to Tiffany Clem) were wonderful!!!
The kids had a great time and learn the true meaning of giving! Of course, they are also fed breakfast, they got to wrap the presents, and wrote a letter to Santa.
This year I got the honor of helping to plan it. I had a lot of fun, but realized how much work goes into something like that. Amanda Allen is the organizer and she did a GREAT job!! The decorations (thanks to Tiffany Clem) were wonderful!!!
The kids had a great time and learn the true meaning of giving! Of course, they are also fed breakfast, they got to wrap the presents, and wrote a letter to Santa.
Thanksgiving Feasts
This year Connor and Jaxson both had a feast at their school. I went to Connor's and Brock went to Jaxson's.
Connor's was very cute! They had a plate full of food, but of course, Connor only ate the cheese cubes...off his plate and two others. Here are some cute pictures from his fun day.
Pictures of Jax's coming soon....
Connor's was very cute! They had a plate full of food, but of course, Connor only ate the cheese cubes...off his plate and two others. Here are some cute pictures from his fun day.
Pictures of Jax's coming soon....
Wednesday, November 12, 2008
It's Finally A Girl!!!!
I can not believe it! I was completely prepared to have another sweet, wonderful little boy. I am still in shock!!! I don't know if I believe it! I keep looking at the sonogram and making sure that a "male part" doesn't pop out!
In response to all of the questions I keep on getting.
I do not have a girl name picked out, but I know that it will be something extremely girlie!!!
I don't know how I will decorate her room, but it will VERY pink.
You will NEVER see my daughter without a bow on her head and she will probably not wear pants for the first 10 or so years of her life! lol
Yes, I gladly accept any pink hand-me downs!!!
In response to all of the questions I keep on getting.
I do not have a girl name picked out, but I know that it will be something extremely girlie!!!
I don't know how I will decorate her room, but it will VERY pink.
You will NEVER see my daughter without a bow on her head and she will probably not wear pants for the first 10 or so years of her life! lol
Yes, I gladly accept any pink hand-me downs!!!
Monday, November 10, 2008
Hays Husky Fun Run
Saturday, we had our school fundraiser. It was a 5K and a 1 mile walk/run. It was a blast. We met our school fundraising goal and the community had a lot of fun! Blake P. came and supported Connor in running the 5K. We really appreciate his support and friendship! I was completely impressed with Connor. He ran the 1 mile in less than ten minutes. I didn't expect him to take it so seriously.
He and the 4th grade students got much pleasure out of watching me get a pie in the face! My class raised the most money for in 4th grade so one of the kids got to throw a pie in my face. So not fair since last year the winning class got to go to lunch in a limo, but oh well...it was all in good fun.
We can't wait until next year!
He and the 4th grade students got much pleasure out of watching me get a pie in the face! My class raised the most money for in 4th grade so one of the kids got to throw a pie in my face. So not fair since last year the winning class got to go to lunch in a limo, but oh well...it was all in good fun.
We can't wait until next year!
Wednesday, October 29, 2008
Staff Kids Trick or Treat
We have a great school with AMAZING teachers. Since we have such a great school, the teachers bring their kids to school here. We have about 35-40 staff kids!!! That is a lot of kids!
Yesterday, we had a trick or treat time after school for the staff kids. The kids were so excited to get an extra chance to wear their costumes and get more candy.
Connor Met a Celebrity!!!
I am so late in posting this, but about a month ago Connor got to meet Jason Castro. He is a big celebrity around here since he is from Rockwall. He came to our school to speak to an after school guitar club. The kids were so surprised!! He was very nice, sang parts of about 4 songs and signed a hundred autographs. It was a big day for Hays Elementary.
Saturday, September 20, 2008
Connor's Birthday Party
Last night we had Connor's birthday party. He had some of his best friends, Colby, Lyle and Preslie go with us. We went to a new place in Mesquite called Incredible Pizza. It was so much fun! The place really reminded Brock and I of a place they would have at Disney World. They had 3 dining rooms, a gymnasium, a movie theater, and a diner. We ate in the movie theater. The food was really good, pizza, baked potatoes, pasta, salad, and more.
After dinner, we armed the kids with "credit cards" and they were off to play. The Fair Grounds had bumper cars, go-carts, putt-putt, bowling and arcade games. After a few hours of playing, we hurded back into the car and drove home. We opened Connor's presents and ate cake. The kids ran wild for a little while, then it was time for Preslie to go home. So, we took her home and of course we had to play there for awhile. Then back home! The boys were so good!
I think all of the kids had a good time and Connor had the best birthday party of his life!
Connor's 1st Coach-Pitch Baseball Game
We enjoyed his game so much! My grandparents were still in town, so they even got to come. I don't get to watch too much of the game because Kaden is pretty active, but I loved watching him in action.
The first time up to bat, he struck out but that was okay. He made up for it. The next time he got up to bat, he got what I think is called a RBI...one of his friends got to homebase off of his hit...is that an RBI????
Then he almost got a homerun...he got all the way to third base. With the next batter he got all the way in and got a point...I believe he also got another RBI at that bat...
Again, I didn't get to see much, but I was impressed with what I did see!
Connor's 7th Birthday!!!
Connor got so lucky this year! My parent's 30th anniversary was this year and it just happens to fall a couple of days before Connor's birthday. So we had a party for them and surprised them with their parents. The party was on Saturday and Sunday was Connor's birthday. We had quite a group meet us at Connor's favorite restaurant, Snuffer's, for lunch after church.
He was so excited to see so many people gathered together for his birthday! That evening my whole family met at Beau's house for dinner. The boys had a great time and it was wonderful to spend so much time with my grandparents and cousin that I never get to see.
It is very important to me for my grandfather to play and know Kaden since he is his name sake. Kaden's middle name is Samuel, like PeePaw. When he is in town, Kaden becomes Sammy. I love my grandfather and wish that I could spend more time with him.
Be thankful if you live close to your grandparents, I miss them everyday.
Happy Birthday Connor! I hope you had a GREAT day! I love you!
He was so excited to see so many people gathered together for his birthday! That evening my whole family met at Beau's house for dinner. The boys had a great time and it was wonderful to spend so much time with my grandparents and cousin that I never get to see.
It is very important to me for my grandfather to play and know Kaden since he is his name sake. Kaden's middle name is Samuel, like PeePaw. When he is in town, Kaden becomes Sammy. I love my grandfather and wish that I could spend more time with him.
Be thankful if you live close to your grandparents, I miss them everyday.
Happy Birthday Connor! I hope you had a GREAT day! I love you!
Tuesday, September 2, 2008
Labor Day????
Connor's 1st Day of 1st Grade
I can't believe how late this is, but you can guess why by reading my last post! Connor had a great first week of school. He has a wonderful teacher who I think is going to be great for him! He has already come home with new knowledge. He really enjoys class. It might be because he has so many of his friends in his class. Connor and I are really blessed to be at such a wonderful school with wonderful teachers and students. I love my class and my team.
This is going to be a great year!
Saturday, August 30, 2008
I'm Pregnant...Again
Most of you already know this, but I am indeed pregnant with my FOURTH child! It is quite a shock but looking at the other three sweet children running around, I can't be upset. Brock and I really do make great kids! I'm a little stressed about everything else surrounding it like money, patience, energy, and the list goes on and on....
It really all comes down to the fact the God promised that he won't give me anything that I can't handle, so I really have nothing to worry about...Well, I'm trying not to worry... Also, while I feel like I fall very short most of the time when it comes to being the best mom, wife, and teacher...I know again that I have to be doing something right for God to keep giving me these kids!
I am really excited to see what kind of personality we'll get this time because all three of my boys are wonderful but very different.
Connor is calm, quiet, thoughtful, very intelligent, and happy. He wants to know about everything, why things happen. He is not very affectionate, but very sweet.
Jaxson is rambucious, loving, happy, and a little wild. He is busy, busy, busy. He likes to wrestle and karate chop people, but he is very affectionate.
Kaden is sweet, happy and precious. He is a little young, but I can tell that he is his own little person.
Will I get a Jax, a Connor, another Kaden? What about a girl?
We'll see!
Connor and Jaz are really excited! In fact, Jax has two babies in his belly also and I get to here them talking and kicking all the time!
It really all comes down to the fact the God promised that he won't give me anything that I can't handle, so I really have nothing to worry about...Well, I'm trying not to worry... Also, while I feel like I fall very short most of the time when it comes to being the best mom, wife, and teacher...I know again that I have to be doing something right for God to keep giving me these kids!
I am really excited to see what kind of personality we'll get this time because all three of my boys are wonderful but very different.
Connor is calm, quiet, thoughtful, very intelligent, and happy. He wants to know about everything, why things happen. He is not very affectionate, but very sweet.
Jaxson is rambucious, loving, happy, and a little wild. He is busy, busy, busy. He likes to wrestle and karate chop people, but he is very affectionate.
Kaden is sweet, happy and precious. He is a little young, but I can tell that he is his own little person.
Will I get a Jax, a Connor, another Kaden? What about a girl?
We'll see!
Connor and Jaz are really excited! In fact, Jax has two babies in his belly also and I get to here them talking and kicking all the time!
Saturday, August 16, 2008
End of Summer Update
At the beginning of the summer, I listed several things that I wanted to accomplish before the end of the summer. Let's see how I did.....
1.) Catch up on scrapbooking
- Well, I did spend a whole weekend with good friends working on my many books and then another Friday night...but no I am not caught up...I need to do much more to be caught up.
2.) Thoroughly clean my house
- Well, I did but since then my sweet little tornadoes have again destroyed it.
3.) Organize closets and drawers
-Some I have, but not all
4.) Potty train Jax
-YES!!!!!
5.) Lose weight
-Well, I started, but as most of you know, instead of losing, I will be gaining....again....
I hate that I am starting school next week and leaving my babies during the day, but I do love my job! I work at a great school with wonderful teachers! I can't wait to see which wonderful teacher Connor gets next year!!!
1.) Catch up on scrapbooking
- Well, I did spend a whole weekend with good friends working on my many books and then another Friday night...but no I am not caught up...I need to do much more to be caught up.
2.) Thoroughly clean my house
- Well, I did but since then my sweet little tornadoes have again destroyed it.
3.) Organize closets and drawers
-Some I have, but not all
4.) Potty train Jax
-YES!!!!!
5.) Lose weight
-Well, I started, but as most of you know, instead of losing, I will be gaining....again....
I hate that I am starting school next week and leaving my babies during the day, but I do love my job! I work at a great school with wonderful teachers! I can't wait to see which wonderful teacher Connor gets next year!!!
Saturday, August 9, 2008
Hawaiian Falls
Thursday, I took Connor and Jaxson to Hawaiian Falls in Garland with Jaime and Maddie. We had a great time!!! We got there about noon and the boys were very upset when we left at 6. We spent most of the day at the Lazy River and the Kid Part. Sorry, I don't know the names of the sections.
I hate that we went so late in the summer. We had so much fun and I wish there was more time to go again.
We only have one more week of summer left! I 've got to find some fun things to do, to make the most of it!
VBS at Eastridge
So, it has been over a week since VBS ended, but for some reason I can't post without a picture and I couldn't find where I put my camera.
We had a great time at VBS this year! Debbie and I were in charge of the 3rd and 4th graders and we had a lot of fun with those kids. Connor and Jaxson had blast each night and they were excited to go each night!
Brock stayed home with Kaden on Sunday and Tuesday night since it was past his bed time, but Kaden loved being there on Monday and Wednesday.
We can't wait until next year!
Monday, July 21, 2008
The Last Week...
So, I have been without the internet for over a week!! My household can not do without the internet. It really is sad! Anyways, here is what the boys have been up to...
Jaime asked us to come over and play in the sprinkler, so I took just a few pictures.
Kaden loves Simba and Simba loves Kaden just as much. He always let's Kaden lay on him but I am never quiet enough to get a picture before they move. It was so cute...Kaden laid down next to him, Simba looked at him and then laid his head down also...
"All I want is my two front teeth...". Connor lost the other front tooth.
This is hilarious!!! Connor saw on some cartoon where a character's underwear or pants got caught on something and couldn't move. So, he decided he would try it...
Once he got up there, the chair moved and he couldn't get down. His underwear was digging into his leg and he was screaming for me to help him down. I was laughing so hard that I had a hard time getting him down.
So, this week I am teaching RACE in the mornings and Connor begins football practice tonight.
Jaime asked us to come over and play in the sprinkler, so I took just a few pictures.
Kaden loves Simba and Simba loves Kaden just as much. He always let's Kaden lay on him but I am never quiet enough to get a picture before they move. It was so cute...Kaden laid down next to him, Simba looked at him and then laid his head down also...
"All I want is my two front teeth...". Connor lost the other front tooth.
This is hilarious!!! Connor saw on some cartoon where a character's underwear or pants got caught on something and couldn't move. So, he decided he would try it...
Once he got up there, the chair moved and he couldn't get down. His underwear was digging into his leg and he was screaming for me to help him down. I was laughing so hard that I had a hard time getting him down.
So, this week I am teaching RACE in the mornings and Connor begins football practice tonight.
Sunday, July 13, 2008
Kaden is one year old…
So the day that I dreaded is here and gone. Kaden turned one today. We had his party yesterday. My baby is not a baby any more. I don’t know where the time went. I feel like I was in the hospital last month giving birth.
Kaden is such a sweet little boy and I just can’t believe that he is so old. He is walking and drinking out of a cup. He will be going to Mother’s Day Out 4 days a week starting in September. How can I stop time? I want to pause everything. I want to slow this down.
I am really struggling with this. I don’t want my little boys to grow up, but also I don’t want to close this chapter of my life. We’re not going to have any more kids and it is so hard knowing that part of my life is over. I will never get to hold my newborn baby in my arms and on my stomach and wonder how in the world he fit in there! I had a hard time at the hospital with Chris and McKenlie because I thought, “Wow, I’ll never do this again”. I looked at that sweet baby girl and thought, “I’ll never have another one of those again”. I went to a baby shower today and remembered the feeling of excitement knowing that soon I was going to see the alien growing in me.
The weird thing is that I don’t want to have another baby. I can’t afford another one and I don’t have the time and energy to have another one…but I still feel sad. So, I guess if I had 10 children I would still feel this way after the 10th.
I guess part of my problem is that I feel like everything is going so fast and I can’t slow it down. Brock keeps saying that Connor is 1/3 of the way to college!!! Are you kidding me? I don’t want to hear that! That really scares me!!
Anyways, we had a really good day and then we went to the Barineau’s this evening for dinner and fellowship. We had a good time with the Barineau’s and the Perkins’. They are some of the best friends we could ever ask for!
Moral of the story is…cherish your families every day because life goes by TOO fast!!!
Saturday, July 12, 2008
Kaden’s Birthday Party
Kaden’s 1st birthday party went great!!! He had a wonderful time and loved all of his presents. We had all of our family and close friends over to celebrate with Kaden. We missed Papa, Aunt Chris and McKenlie because they were still in the hospital and Uncle Beau and Amanda were still on vacation. Uncle Blake was in summer school and the Barineau’s were still in Florida…but other than that all of his favorite people were there.
This was his invitation.
We ate pizza for lunch and Kaden ate a whole piece!!! Then we began opening presents. Kaden got a Bounce and Spin Zebra, a ride-on firetruck, a dumptruck, books, bath toys and clothes. Connor and Jaxson enjoyed playing with his toys as much as Kaden did.
Then Kaden dug into his cake. Kaden doesn’t like to be dirty, so he didn’t like the icing on his hands after he stuck them in the cake. He ended up with icing all over his face and then I would lift the cake to his face and he would take a bite. He did really well.
(I will put a picture later...I have to get one. I was busy with Kaden and couldn't take any pictures)
After that we served cake to everyone else and then just visited with our friends and family. It was great to see everyone and have so many people that we love in the same place.
Kaden is a very lucky boy to have such a great family and have such great friends surrounding him! God has really blessed us!
Friday, July 11, 2008
McKenlie Brooke Jackson
My 4th precious niece, McKenlie Brooke, was born yesterday.
McKenlie was born yesterday around 6. She weighed 9 lbs 9 oz and was 21 1/2 in. Big baby and she was 5 weeks early!!! Can you imagine if she would of waited 5 more weeks?
I haven't gotten to see her yet because they took her to the NICU because her blood sugar was really low. They planned to only keep her overnight, but this morning they were still trying to regulate her heart rate and sugars. I can't wait to hold that sweet baby in my arms.
Please pray that McKenlie will get everything regulated and get out of the NICU soon. hope that she is able to go home on Sunday with her mommy as planned.
McKenlie is my 4th niece, I have no nephews but 3 sons. I honestly think that I am the only one in the family that produces boys. We'll see what Beau and Amanda produce!
McKenlie was born yesterday around 6. She weighed 9 lbs 9 oz and was 21 1/2 in. Big baby and she was 5 weeks early!!! Can you imagine if she would of waited 5 more weeks?
I haven't gotten to see her yet because they took her to the NICU because her blood sugar was really low. They planned to only keep her overnight, but this morning they were still trying to regulate her heart rate and sugars. I can't wait to hold that sweet baby in my arms.
Please pray that McKenlie will get everything regulated and get out of the NICU soon. hope that she is able to go home on Sunday with her mommy as planned.
McKenlie is my 4th niece, I have no nephews but 3 sons. I honestly think that I am the only one in the family that produces boys. We'll see what Beau and Amanda produce!
Friday, July 4, 2008
4th of July
We had a great day. It started off wonderfully! My parents kept the boys last night so that Brock and I could go to a movie. We slept until 10:30!!! I can't remember the last time I slept that late! We got up and then went to get the boys. We got there and then took the boys swimming. We had a great time in the pool.
We left there and then came home to rest before all the fun began. Can you believe that we got in another nap??
Brock told Connor a couple of weeks ago that he would let Connor have a mohawk and color it red, white, and blue for the 4th of July. So....
Connor loved it!!! We tried to color Jax's hair also, but he decided that he didn't want it. We went to our church to watch the fireworks. We had a great time! We had a catered bar-b-q dinner and then the bounce houses. The boys had a blast!!
It was really hot, but not unbearable. The boys loved it for most of the time Kaden just roamed around! But what he really liked, was his sno-cone.
We were worried about how Kaden would do during the fireworks because last time he didn't like the noise. Last weekend we went to Brock's parent's house and did fireworks from their house. Kaden did not like the sound at all and I spent the night in the house. This time it wasn't so loud so he did a lot better.
Now we are just hoping that they sleep in tomorrow morning!
We left there and then came home to rest before all the fun began. Can you believe that we got in another nap??
Brock told Connor a couple of weeks ago that he would let Connor have a mohawk and color it red, white, and blue for the 4th of July. So....
Connor loved it!!! We tried to color Jax's hair also, but he decided that he didn't want it. We went to our church to watch the fireworks. We had a great time! We had a catered bar-b-q dinner and then the bounce houses. The boys had a blast!!
It was really hot, but not unbearable. The boys loved it for most of the time Kaden just roamed around! But what he really liked, was his sno-cone.
We were worried about how Kaden would do during the fireworks because last time he didn't like the noise. Last weekend we went to Brock's parent's house and did fireworks from their house. Kaden did not like the sound at all and I spent the night in the house. This time it wasn't so loud so he did a lot better.
Now we are just hoping that they sleep in tomorrow morning!
Friday, June 27, 2008
What's with me???
I have been so emotional the last few days.
I know that we have to leave the house at least every other day during the summer for all of us to keep our sanity. Well, I didn't do that this week. We went swimming at mom's on Tuesday but stayed home all day Wednesday and Thursday. It was all fine until about 4:00 on Thursday. All the sudden everything got to me. I am trying to potty train Jaxson and he didn't go in the toilet at all Thursday so I had several messes to clean up. Kaden doesn't want me to move and any time that I move from one room to another, I am to pick him up and take him with me. I have been working REALLY hard to really clean my house and it looks like I haven't done a thing all week. I had my kitchen and living room completely clean by 4 on Wednesday and by 8 it was destroyed!!! Jax and Connor were arguing and competing over everything...So I was just a little frustrated or overwhelmed or something!! So, by the time Brock got home and I got everyone fed, I needed a break. So, I went to my room to "take a break". Of course I could hear Kaden crying for momma and you can't really relax when you hear your sweet baby crying your name, so I came back out. After a little while I calmed down and everything was okay. I feel so bad when I get like this. I love these boys so much and I am so thankful that I have a job where I can spend a couple of months at home with them. Am I the only one who goes through this? Do stay-at-home moms go through this? I just feel bad.
Anyways, so I go to bed at like midnight and can not sleep. My mind is going a 100 miles an hour as usual so I can't calm down enough to go to sleep. Kaden will be 1 in about two weeks! I am so sad. Ever since Kaden was born I've had issues. I don't want any more kids, but I can't come to terms with the fact that I won't have any more. I had a hard time putting my maternity clothes away. Each diaper size increase, I cry. I know I need to start transitioning him from a bottle to a cup. When I do this, I will never have another baby in my house. I will never have another 1st birthday to plan. I will never experience bringing my new baby home to his family. The list goes on and on. I know, I know everyone probably goes through this, but when you are the one going through it, you feel very alone.
A couple of days ago I was going through Connor's scrapbooks and I was so sad. I don't really remember him as a baby. I guess I expected to be able to close my eyes and still feel him in my arms...I can't. He is almost 7...7. When did that happen? Where was I? I fear him being 16 and me not being able to remember any of their baby years. I fear Kaden going off to college and feeling empty. I fear that I am not doing the right things to bring them up to be good, honest, happy, sincere, Christian men. What do I know about raising a man, I'm not one. The only thing that I am sure about is that if I pray enough and look to God, he will not steer my in the wrong direction.
So that thought brought me to our house for some reason. When I think about moving into our house, I see a picture that I took of Connor when we moved in, playing in the living room. He was about six months old. So we have been in this house for about 6 1/2 years and so much has happened. I have gone back to college and graduated. I have had 2 sweet babies. We moved into a 4 bedroom house and only used 2...now our house is full and I am having to find places to put stuff. When did all of that happen?
As you can imagine, I was emotional thinking of all of these things. Then today I was watching some of my DVRed shows. I was watching one of my favorites "Army Wives" and I just cried and cried. Kaden just kept looking at me, of course, I would smile at him and do something to make him laugh.
So what is wrong with me? What brings these things on? Why do I worry so much? Why can't I just me the perfect mom, wife, and teacher that I want to be? I will just have to keep trying every day.
I know that we have to leave the house at least every other day during the summer for all of us to keep our sanity. Well, I didn't do that this week. We went swimming at mom's on Tuesday but stayed home all day Wednesday and Thursday. It was all fine until about 4:00 on Thursday. All the sudden everything got to me. I am trying to potty train Jaxson and he didn't go in the toilet at all Thursday so I had several messes to clean up. Kaden doesn't want me to move and any time that I move from one room to another, I am to pick him up and take him with me. I have been working REALLY hard to really clean my house and it looks like I haven't done a thing all week. I had my kitchen and living room completely clean by 4 on Wednesday and by 8 it was destroyed!!! Jax and Connor were arguing and competing over everything...So I was just a little frustrated or overwhelmed or something!! So, by the time Brock got home and I got everyone fed, I needed a break. So, I went to my room to "take a break". Of course I could hear Kaden crying for momma and you can't really relax when you hear your sweet baby crying your name, so I came back out. After a little while I calmed down and everything was okay. I feel so bad when I get like this. I love these boys so much and I am so thankful that I have a job where I can spend a couple of months at home with them. Am I the only one who goes through this? Do stay-at-home moms go through this? I just feel bad.
Anyways, so I go to bed at like midnight and can not sleep. My mind is going a 100 miles an hour as usual so I can't calm down enough to go to sleep. Kaden will be 1 in about two weeks! I am so sad. Ever since Kaden was born I've had issues. I don't want any more kids, but I can't come to terms with the fact that I won't have any more. I had a hard time putting my maternity clothes away. Each diaper size increase, I cry. I know I need to start transitioning him from a bottle to a cup. When I do this, I will never have another baby in my house. I will never have another 1st birthday to plan. I will never experience bringing my new baby home to his family. The list goes on and on. I know, I know everyone probably goes through this, but when you are the one going through it, you feel very alone.
A couple of days ago I was going through Connor's scrapbooks and I was so sad. I don't really remember him as a baby. I guess I expected to be able to close my eyes and still feel him in my arms...I can't. He is almost 7...7. When did that happen? Where was I? I fear him being 16 and me not being able to remember any of their baby years. I fear Kaden going off to college and feeling empty. I fear that I am not doing the right things to bring them up to be good, honest, happy, sincere, Christian men. What do I know about raising a man, I'm not one. The only thing that I am sure about is that if I pray enough and look to God, he will not steer my in the wrong direction.
So that thought brought me to our house for some reason. When I think about moving into our house, I see a picture that I took of Connor when we moved in, playing in the living room. He was about six months old. So we have been in this house for about 6 1/2 years and so much has happened. I have gone back to college and graduated. I have had 2 sweet babies. We moved into a 4 bedroom house and only used 2...now our house is full and I am having to find places to put stuff. When did all of that happen?
As you can imagine, I was emotional thinking of all of these things. Then today I was watching some of my DVRed shows. I was watching one of my favorites "Army Wives" and I just cried and cried. Kaden just kept looking at me, of course, I would smile at him and do something to make him laugh.
So what is wrong with me? What brings these things on? Why do I worry so much? Why can't I just me the perfect mom, wife, and teacher that I want to be? I will just have to keep trying every day.
Wednesday, June 25, 2008
Another Goal
The other night I blogged about my goals for the summer. I forgot one of the most important ones...losing weight. Duh! I have struggled with my weight since I gained 100 lbs with Connor. Now that I am REALLY done having babies this is a big priority of mine. Since I got back from vacation, I have done really well not eating too much and with what I have eaten and I started walking again.
I don't mind walking so much, but I hate walking on a treadmill. So my next struggle is that if you know me well you know that Schauna does not like to sweat, but b/c I am going through menopause and sweating alot lately any way I am getting over that. Yes, I know that I am not really going through menopause, but that is how I describe this new phenomenom. The other thing is finding the time to do it. So since I am not teaching right now, I am able to stay up later so I go walking after Kaden goes to sleep, which also helps with the heat. The next obstacle is that I don't like to go by myself. My neighbor and good friend, Jaime, and I used to go every night but then we had 4 kids between the two of us (Connor was already here back then) and life got quite hectic. Jaime and I went walking on Monday night and then I went all by myself tonight, well actually Simba went with me. I had several excuses not to go but I did it! YEAH for me! Anyways, my goal is to go at least every other day. So, we'll see if I make it on Friday.
So this is how I look now...The before picture....
This is my plan for after....
I don't mind walking so much, but I hate walking on a treadmill. So my next struggle is that if you know me well you know that Schauna does not like to sweat, but b/c I am going through menopause and sweating alot lately any way I am getting over that. Yes, I know that I am not really going through menopause, but that is how I describe this new phenomenom. The other thing is finding the time to do it. So since I am not teaching right now, I am able to stay up later so I go walking after Kaden goes to sleep, which also helps with the heat. The next obstacle is that I don't like to go by myself. My neighbor and good friend, Jaime, and I used to go every night but then we had 4 kids between the two of us (Connor was already here back then) and life got quite hectic. Jaime and I went walking on Monday night and then I went all by myself tonight, well actually Simba went with me. I had several excuses not to go but I did it! YEAH for me! Anyways, my goal is to go at least every other day. So, we'll see if I make it on Friday.
So this is how I look now...The before picture....
This is my plan for after....
Tuesday, June 24, 2008
Monday, June 23, 2008
What To Do, What To Do...
So today is the start of my 3rd week of summer. I did nothing but play with the boys, mainly Kaden, and I am okay with that. The first week was filled with swimming lessons and the second week we were on vacation...but now what?
My plans are to take the boys swimming, meet a friend at Chick Fil A, go to Harry Myers and play at the sprinkler park, and maybe hit one of the $1 movies each week. I want to give them a fun summer but not spend too much money! So that is my weak plan for the kiddos, but what about me???
I have many things to accomplish this summer. So, if I put it down in writing, I HAVE to do it...right?
1. get caught up on my scrapbooking---this is difficult b/c it is hard to get all my stuff out b/c the boys will get into everything.
2. throughly clean each room---my plan is to start tomorrow and do one room a day.
3. organize my drawers and cabinets in the kitchen.
4. organize my laundry room.
5. POTTY TRAIN JAX---this should be way higher on the list, but I am too lazy to move them around.
6. frame pictures to put on the walls.
Okay, well it is late and this is all I can think of now, but each is a big job!
My plans are to take the boys swimming, meet a friend at Chick Fil A, go to Harry Myers and play at the sprinkler park, and maybe hit one of the $1 movies each week. I want to give them a fun summer but not spend too much money! So that is my weak plan for the kiddos, but what about me???
I have many things to accomplish this summer. So, if I put it down in writing, I HAVE to do it...right?
1. get caught up on my scrapbooking---this is difficult b/c it is hard to get all my stuff out b/c the boys will get into everything.
2. throughly clean each room---my plan is to start tomorrow and do one room a day.
3. organize my drawers and cabinets in the kitchen.
4. organize my laundry room.
5. POTTY TRAIN JAX---this should be way higher on the list, but I am too lazy to move them around.
6. frame pictures to put on the walls.
Okay, well it is late and this is all I can think of now, but each is a big job!
Friday, June 20, 2008
Thursday and Friday
Thursday
We left the hotel to go to the Aquarium. The aquarium was fun, but not what I remembered. It took us less than an hour to tour and see everything. So we left there and went to the souvenir shops. You can’t go on vacation to the beach and not get a 4 for $10 t-shirt! Of course, Brock rolled his eyes at that, but indulged me anyways. Of course, once inside the store, the shirts that you buy are never the cheap ones. The boys each got a shirt, but I was unable to find my sno-globe.
We leave the shop and start our drive to Austin. I know that it is only a 4 hour drive, but it seemed like forever. Do you ever notice how it takes much longer to get home when on a road trip? Anyways, the boys were antsy and I thought that I had lost my camera and phone (which explains why I have no pictures from the aquarium), so I was not in a great mood. When we got to Austin, we were pleased with our $70 a night Priceline hotel. We stayed at the Doubletree in Austin. It was a very nice hotel and the bed was wonderful. We hung around the room for a little while and then decided to go eat. We knew that the capitol was closed so we would have to wait until Friday to go. We ate at Macaroni Grill (my favorite) and then went back to the hotel. I took the boys swimming while Brock and Kaden stayed in the room and played. Connor and Jax love the water as much as I did as a child.
Friday
We got up around 8 and got ready. We left the hotel around 9 and went to Denny’s for breakfast. We ate breakfast and were off to the capitol building. I was so excited. We went to the capitol building because Connor wanted to, but Brock and I ended up being much more excited and impressed with it than my almost 7 year old.
It is a beautiful building with so much history. I like to stand back and just think about all of the things that have happened within those walls and all the people that have been there. I am a nerd, but I love those kinds of things.
We left the hotel to go to the Aquarium. The aquarium was fun, but not what I remembered. It took us less than an hour to tour and see everything. So we left there and went to the souvenir shops. You can’t go on vacation to the beach and not get a 4 for $10 t-shirt! Of course, Brock rolled his eyes at that, but indulged me anyways. Of course, once inside the store, the shirts that you buy are never the cheap ones. The boys each got a shirt, but I was unable to find my sno-globe.
We leave the shop and start our drive to Austin. I know that it is only a 4 hour drive, but it seemed like forever. Do you ever notice how it takes much longer to get home when on a road trip? Anyways, the boys were antsy and I thought that I had lost my camera and phone (which explains why I have no pictures from the aquarium), so I was not in a great mood. When we got to Austin, we were pleased with our $70 a night Priceline hotel. We stayed at the Doubletree in Austin. It was a very nice hotel and the bed was wonderful. We hung around the room for a little while and then decided to go eat. We knew that the capitol was closed so we would have to wait until Friday to go. We ate at Macaroni Grill (my favorite) and then went back to the hotel. I took the boys swimming while Brock and Kaden stayed in the room and played. Connor and Jax love the water as much as I did as a child.
Friday
We got up around 8 and got ready. We left the hotel around 9 and went to Denny’s for breakfast. We ate breakfast and were off to the capitol building. I was so excited. We went to the capitol building because Connor wanted to, but Brock and I ended up being much more excited and impressed with it than my almost 7 year old.
It is a beautiful building with so much history. I like to stand back and just think about all of the things that have happened within those walls and all the people that have been there. I am a nerd, but I love those kinds of things.
Wednesday, June 18, 2008
The Last 2 Days in Padre
Tuesday
So, we woke up and got dressed for the beach. We went down to the hotel restaurant and eat. It was alright, but way overpriced. From there we went straight out to the beach. We had a great time.
Jax played out in the water but wouldn't get too deep.
Connor, on the other hand, wouldn't come in from the waves.
Kaden did much better. He actually like it a bit. I had to keep pulling him in from getting too deep.
After being in the ocean for about 2 1/2 hours, the boys wanted to go to the pool. So we did. After that we came back to the room for a little while so that Kaden could take a nap. We only napped for like 1 hour because the boys were too loud.
We decided to go into Corpus for dinner and to walk around a bit. We ate at Blackbeards, which is supposed to be haunted. Connor LOVED that. After eating, we went and took pictures around the USS Lexington.
Brock loves this one...
After all of this, we got back to the hotel at around 9. Brock took the boys to the pool.
Wednesday
We woke up and ate...this time we were smarter, we stopped by the convenience store and got donuts for the morning. Kaden ate half of mine and Jax's donuts. Then we headed for the ocean. He played in the ocean for about 2 hours. Then we decided to go in and get cleaned up for lunch. After everyone got cleaned up, we went to lunch. Both of the boys had been asking for pizza, so we found a small pizzeria called, Padre Pizza and stopped. It was WONDERFUL!!! We loved it. After that, we went to Bob Hall's Pier. It was pretty cool, but really hot and the boys running around made us really nervous. We saw a few people catch fish, but not much else. Oh well, I was excited.
We went back to the hotel and Brock took Connor and Jax swimming in the pool so that I could get Kaden to take a nap. He woke up when they came back. We played in the room for awhile and then we went out again for dinner. We ended up at Logan's Roadhouse. Again, we loved it. It is a lot like Texas Roadhouse, which I LOVE. We got back to the hotel and we went back out to the beach. We weren't there long, the waves were really small. We walked out a little way and Brock and I saw something black on the floor of the ocean. I quickly decided I was done and would take Kaden back to the sand. I was done with the beach after seeing that. A few minutes later Connor came out complaining about his stomach and there was a large red spot. We suspect that we was stung by a jellyfish. By that time we were all kindof done. We decided the pool was much safer. We stayed there for quite awhile! We had a great day!!!!
Tomorrow we are off to the aquarium.
So, we woke up and got dressed for the beach. We went down to the hotel restaurant and eat. It was alright, but way overpriced. From there we went straight out to the beach. We had a great time.
Jax played out in the water but wouldn't get too deep.
Connor, on the other hand, wouldn't come in from the waves.
Kaden did much better. He actually like it a bit. I had to keep pulling him in from getting too deep.
After being in the ocean for about 2 1/2 hours, the boys wanted to go to the pool. So we did. After that we came back to the room for a little while so that Kaden could take a nap. We only napped for like 1 hour because the boys were too loud.
We decided to go into Corpus for dinner and to walk around a bit. We ate at Blackbeards, which is supposed to be haunted. Connor LOVED that. After eating, we went and took pictures around the USS Lexington.
Brock loves this one...
After all of this, we got back to the hotel at around 9. Brock took the boys to the pool.
Wednesday
We woke up and ate...this time we were smarter, we stopped by the convenience store and got donuts for the morning. Kaden ate half of mine and Jax's donuts. Then we headed for the ocean. He played in the ocean for about 2 hours. Then we decided to go in and get cleaned up for lunch. After everyone got cleaned up, we went to lunch. Both of the boys had been asking for pizza, so we found a small pizzeria called, Padre Pizza and stopped. It was WONDERFUL!!! We loved it. After that, we went to Bob Hall's Pier. It was pretty cool, but really hot and the boys running around made us really nervous. We saw a few people catch fish, but not much else. Oh well, I was excited.
We went back to the hotel and Brock took Connor and Jax swimming in the pool so that I could get Kaden to take a nap. He woke up when they came back. We played in the room for awhile and then we went out again for dinner. We ended up at Logan's Roadhouse. Again, we loved it. It is a lot like Texas Roadhouse, which I LOVE. We got back to the hotel and we went back out to the beach. We weren't there long, the waves were really small. We walked out a little way and Brock and I saw something black on the floor of the ocean. I quickly decided I was done and would take Kaden back to the sand. I was done with the beach after seeing that. A few minutes later Connor came out complaining about his stomach and there was a large red spot. We suspect that we was stung by a jellyfish. By that time we were all kindof done. We decided the pool was much safer. We stayed there for quite awhile! We had a great day!!!!
Tomorrow we are off to the aquarium.
Tuesday, June 17, 2008
Our First Day in Corpus Christi
So we left our house at 9 am, but did not get out of Rockwall until 10!!! There was a wreck and we had to run a few arrands. The boys were great in the car. Kaden did start fussing until about 12:30, so we made it to Austin about 1 and stopped to eat. We ate at BK so that the kids could get some energy out. We were back on the run by 2 and got into Corpus around 5:30. Kaden crying the last 45 minutes of the drive, but overall he did great!!!
The kids were so excited. We got all our luggage up to the room and then went down to look around. I took Connor and Jaxson down by the water and it took everything in me to keep them out of the water. So we left for dinner as I promised that we would come back after dinner.
Today is Brock's birthday, so the choose was his. We went to Doc's seafood (I bet you would have never guessed). It was great food, but it was very hot...I was sweating really bad and we all know how I love to sweat. Kaden was super fussy and made me hold his sippy cup while he drank it....the whole time we were there.
After dinner we went by a gift shop to get the buggy board that Connor wanted so bad. Then we came back to the hotel changed and went to the beach. The boys LOVED it, especially Connor. He went right out into those waves with no fear. Jaxson was not as brave but really got into after a little while. Kaden on the other hand, does not like the sand and water. He doesn't like that he can't get it all back off his hands. Maybe tomorrow he will like it more. Hopefully I will get a chance to blog about tomorrows adventures tomorrow, but right now I better go to sleep. The rest of the family has gotten a head start on sleeping and if I don't go to sleep, tomorrow will be a nightmare!!
The kids were so excited. We got all our luggage up to the room and then went down to look around. I took Connor and Jaxson down by the water and it took everything in me to keep them out of the water. So we left for dinner as I promised that we would come back after dinner.
Today is Brock's birthday, so the choose was his. We went to Doc's seafood (I bet you would have never guessed). It was great food, but it was very hot...I was sweating really bad and we all know how I love to sweat. Kaden was super fussy and made me hold his sippy cup while he drank it....the whole time we were there.
After dinner we went by a gift shop to get the buggy board that Connor wanted so bad. Then we came back to the hotel changed and went to the beach. The boys LOVED it, especially Connor. He went right out into those waves with no fear. Jaxson was not as brave but really got into after a little while. Kaden on the other hand, does not like the sand and water. He doesn't like that he can't get it all back off his hands. Maybe tomorrow he will like it more. Hopefully I will get a chance to blog about tomorrows adventures tomorrow, but right now I better go to sleep. The rest of the family has gotten a head start on sleeping and if I don't go to sleep, tomorrow will be a nightmare!!
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